Friday 26 April 2019


April has been a busy month. Towards the end of March I was asked to offer my writing services to a book project recording the lives of some of the folk who live in our village - a very tiny selection but hopefully a somewhat representative one. In between a plethora of interviews, I have also embarked upon a new drug called Mycophenolate Mofetil (I had tried it before and it had been extremely unpleasant... this is what the doctors call ‘re-challenging a patient’... a bit like facing an old foe in a new duel). A gastroscope wound its way into the mix with a bunch of biopsies taken. That left me a little bruised and weary.

At Easter my feet found their way to our local church where I bumped into friends who were arranging the Easter flowers. I ended up helping with the main arrangement by the altar, and marvelling that ten years had passed since I was in hospital at Easter, 2009 - the three month long admission that marked me on deep, unfathomable levels. A decade ago I had a clear understanding of what was needed of me to live, or rather, to go on living. In some ways, the essentials haven't changed - two of which are named Perveen and Chotu, or Mum and Dad... but I am once again, worn to the bone. To the cells that deplete, and replete, and deplete, and on and on... until I cannot see anything but the forks and crossroads and ahead, all woods. But where the flowers are, there the light still is. Here, a bouquet of carnations, for you. 


Sherry Blue Sky said...

I cant believe I missed this post.......I am a Dull Thud. The constant depletion, and repletion, must be wearying indeed, my friend. Maybe the doctors think the change of meds will challenge your body to respond better this time. We live in hope. Bless your wonderful parents. I love the photos, and the flowers. Hope you are having a wonderful day, my friend. My youngest daughter has come up-Island with my two granddogs, so we are walking happy beaches with two dogs with big grins, lol. I have a little garden of blooms on my deck, that I am enjoying immensely. I put some photos on facebook the other day.

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