Showing posts with label A friendly cloud. Show all posts
Showing posts with label A friendly cloud. Show all posts

Sunday, 4 August 2013

A LADYBIRD AMONG BUTTERFLIES AND SNAILS

A recent visitor to the farm was a 4 year old boy, a Noo Yawker, whose finer appreciation for the life of snails and ants was charming. Something nipped at him while he was pond dipping but once the sting had passed, he enlightened me on mosquito larvae and water boatmen - the characters in our collection. August is here, and so there is still time for Being Outside. I was sitting under a tree the other day (on my beautiful purple meditation cushion that once belonged to Sister Chan Khong from Plum Village), eating cherries, writing my beloved friend Mary a letter...
when a ladybird crawled up my arm and settled on to me for the afternoon and evening.
Before nightfall, I thought I better put her somewhere less peculiar than the crook of my elbow and the nape of my neck (she was a tireless traveller!) but I had already fallen in love. If I were a 4 year old Noo Yawker I would never have parted with her!
I have not been having an easy time of it this year. Nothing earth shatteringly original - simply the dull ache of a life with illness and the sadness that comes with the knowledge that I am not in the swim of things once more. The last time I felt so painfully out of the loop of my contemporaries was when my life with lupus first began... but I am a writer and where there are words there is a place for me. Where there are trees and the natural order of things, there is a place for me. So I breathe, pay attention and write!

Wednesday, 21 January 2009

Here Comes the Sun

Young and gifted every morning, here comes the Sun
and even when it rains
We make music in different ways, in silence
and even with silence
I am the love I make, the world I create
and even when I change

Everything that is something, starts slowly
even nothing
I have what I want
even the traps, the pain

With a single touch I can make you mine
even if only for a second
I can catch your eye, I can make you smile
and even if we never meet again
life was good then.

Monday, 19 January 2009

Lone Soul

(watercolour by Mujtaba Tayabali www.tayabali.com/art)

There's something out there
moving slowly with the clouds
and softly with the breeze

I am transported suddenly
as though I have discovered
my buried self.

Saturday, 17 January 2009

for my Someday Sister, Katie Down

if i may allow myself one brief moment of self-pity
here am i awash with doubt
i look upon the beautiful ones who make me cry
into the sea of injustice
and i have made myself a prisoner tonight

i clutch at freedom but it laughs at me
and slips away
into the particles of light i cannot see

have i not walked the sacred path?
have i not been bathed in love?
have i not talked and danced with angels?
then
am i not beautiful?

if i allow myself another moment of self-pity
i am a fool...