Wednesday 1 April 2009

Dear Readers,

Today is 1st April. April Fool's Day! If any of you have a good joke you have played on someone I would love to hear it:) Today also completes one month since I was admitted.

I am experiencing a pang of hunger as I write. This is entirely new for me as I have been on a chemotherapy drug called Methotrexate for a decade, and hunger and appetite long deserted me. But the Methotrexate was stopped this admission by the very lovely Dr. Shweta Bhagat who also organised for me to have 12 bottles of ImmunoGlobulins. Her arrival in my life is only one of the many, many miraculous things that have happened this admission.

I am using every resource and skill I have acquired since my first hospital admission 12 years ago. I was a different girl then, at 18. She thought she was on the brink of something dreamy and romantic; instead she got needles, toxic drugs, a diagnosis of Lupus.

I am fighting to pull through, gripping my vine of light. And I wanted you to know that every prayer of yours, every good thought and wish for me brings something good to me - a special doctor, nurse, treatment, kindness.

Some things go horribly wrong, like they did today, but they come right. This is the hardest hospital admission of my life, and the most important.

And I want you to know that I know I am not alone.

Thank you, thank you, thank you.


Jeannette StG said...

The Immunoglobin sounds good - does this have something to do with the thick/thinness of your blood?
Shaista, one thing is for sure, you are now a stronger person inside that you were 12 years ago, my hat off for you!! Can't wait till your condition will change for the better, and you are able to think about your art again:) Keep fighting, my dear friend.

A Cuban In London said...

And thank you for being so strong. I keep checking your blog for any updates.

Take care.

Greetings from London.

Muznah said...

OH so good to hear something from you first hand and im so glad you're staying strong through all of this :)

lots and lots of prayers

Joelle Bataille said...

Dearest Shaista,
I'm so glad you've gotten some of your miracles amidst your fight. Yay :D I say fight cos every time I read your blog it becomes more and more apparent that you are not a victim but a warrior. No prayer, good thought or wish ever goes unheard or unanswered. So we'll all keep praying, thinking and wishing.
You're amazing


Maxine Phillips said...

Dear Shaista

I sent the poem you requested and a picture like the one you described to your email address, hoping that Rizwan is accessing it for you.....

The cherry blossom is swirling in the spring breeze now. I hope some of it is reaching you. Lots of love, bravehearted one...


Erica Grigg said...

You're one of the strongest people I know, Shaista. Your words are beautiful; your positivity is moving; and your spirit is truly magnetic.

You're certainly not alone.


Anonymous said...


Riz just told us about this latest development. I didn't know.

I am coming up to see you, today if I can.

Nads is coming up in August and we'll come down again then.

More in person, very soon.

If you think you've seen a big bouquet of flowers before, think again!


Rhianna said...

Hey Shai,
Can't believe you've been in there for a month and I'm sure each day seems like a mini-month in itself with all it's ups and downs. I'm so pleased that you have a good doctor who is treating you well. You are in my thoughts and prayers and I'm sending you Rambini hugs. I really wish I could be there to just sit and hold your hand and let you know I'm beside you through this but I am holding your hand across the oceans and in my heart so hold on and battle through. May you be victorious in one small way every day - I know you're a fighter! Think of the views of Limone & the gorgeous ice creams we had. Good times. Lots of love and hugs to you, Rhianna

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