Friday 30 August 2019


The heat! The heat!! 
The Amazon fires! 

Last night I trawled the house looking for a fan and came up empty handed... 

This summer has been a summer of children coming and going - one nephew and niece from Singapore, and now my twin nieces from Malaysia,  and as you can imagine their houses are designed perfectly for intense tropical heat, the humid or the dry kind. ‘Where’s the air conditioning?’ Bella asks, as she flings herself about in my bed trying and failing to get comfortable. 
Me, I can’t decide. The heat can be a tricky thing to manoeuvre a body so sensitive to extremes of any kind, but sunshiny light casts a sense of hope over the world for me. Glaucoma as a condition is a net of darkness, the thief of sight, and I am constantly battling a world of changing, shifting, unnerving shadow play. So when the strong summer light comes and stays, I feel living becomes possible again. Reading becomes possible. A house full of books and fading sight can be a tough pill to swallow.

Speaking of pills, do you remember the very first person you knew who took pills? It is generally an older person, isn’t it? Mine was my grandfather. He had surgery for a pacemaker after serious heart attacks and I remember all his tablets, and although vibrant in spirit, how frail his body was with his walking stick ever near; so it has been an odd business being the tablet taker from the age of ten. And wondering what the four children make of their aunt with her tablets, and eye drops and staying in bed so much, and chipping off to the hospital for hours and hours, and sometimes days, weeks... but after the ghastly campylobacter and PICC lines of earlier this year I seem to have escaped nasty infections thus far. (Touching wood madly...)  
I had some scuffles with A&E, am hobbling around with Achilles bursitis trying to catch Pokémon, balancing my days finely on excruciating migraines... a new drug and I did not fare well together and my steroids have been souped up. Rituximab is around the corner albeit half the dose and twice as far apart. Also, I had a birthday with hand made cards and some delicious Malaysian food … 

So onwards like a bullock pulling a cart I go - we go - together, into light and heat and coolness and shadows, building campfires for warmth, creating Wendy houses for play, wondering if the little mouse who was bold as brass on our kitchen counter the other day has run far, far away.



Sherry Blue Sky said...

It is always lovely, and with a lift of my heart, to read you, my beautiful friend across the Pond. I am in awe of your courage, and feeling an ache at your afflictions so challenging in one so young. What i admire most is your heart-lift in the brighter sun. I am glad the little ones come and go, to brighten all your hearts, as children do. I am so sorry we came so close to walking the beach together, sooooo close, and it didnt happen. We shall hobble on together across the miles, dear girl. Hello to all of your glorious family.

Teacher Fluff And Really Good Stuff said...

Thoughtful blog thanks for sharing

sina said...

شرط بندی تنیس
یکی از بازی هایی که بین مردم طرفداران خاص خود را دارد بازی تنیس است. ورزش تنیس در قرون دوازده و سیزده میلادی در کشور فرانسه نیز به وجود امده است. پس از ان توانست به خوبی در بین بازی های رشد داشته باشد. در همان زمان قوانین مربوط به این ورزش تا به امروز بسیار تفاوت کرده است. در سال 1877 اولین بار در دنیا مسابقات تنیس با مقررات و قوانین بخصوصی در زمین‌های تنیس (باشگاه تنیس و کروکت ال انگلند) ویمبلدون برگزار گردید، محلی که هم اکنون بزرگ‌ ترین مسابقات تنیس دنیا در آن برگزار می ‌شود.

sina said...

تاریخ دقیقی از زمان تاسیس و به وجود آوردن این ورزش وجود ندارد زیرا این ورزش از زمان های خیلی قدیم وجود داشته است و کسی دقیقا نمی داند این ورزش مربوط به کدام دوره است. ولی با توجه به آنچه در تاریخ نوشته شده کشور فرانسه در قرن ۱۲ میلادی ابداع این ورزش را به خود اختصاص داده است و در سال ۱۸۷۲ این ورزش به صورت جدی رواج پیدا کرد. برای اینکه شرط بندی تنیس را به نتیجه دلخواه خود برسانید لازم می باشد که در انتخاب سایت شرط بندی تنیس نهایت دقت و توجه را پیاده سازی کنید.

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